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It's Valentine's day today. Well, of course I've got no chocolate because my school isn't coeducational and I don't even go to a private academy or something; so I don't know any boy. Ha, you think it's unrealistic, huh? But that's OK, since I'll go to a co-ed high school this March. Yeah, I don't think i'll be able to have a boyfriend or anything, considering that I'm ugly rather than attractive. Oh, I can't believe I'm talking about my future boyfriend when there're much more important things to worry about than THAT. Actually, I'm worried over the new high school life. I don't even graduate yet, but anyway I'll go there this March. And I know that school's really competitive because every student accepted there has the best grade point average at his/her middle school.(Except me, my GPA was the eleventh at my school..) Moreover, I don't study much these days, only for, like one hour and a half or two hours a day. Everybody studies for seven~eight hours a day. THAT makes me crazy but I can't resist myself! Yeah, I KNOW it's always the hardest thing to be a winner to yourself, and I KNOW how much time you study a day is NOT important, what important is how much time you concentrate a day. But, you know, my mind is not what I can do something about. And I don't have the passion now I usually had during middle school. Dunno why it's gone. Maybe I'm tired of my dream, I went for it for, like, two years, you know. The problem is, THERE"S NO OTHER DREAM I WANT TO MAKE REAL THAN THAT. Dunno what to do. Dunno what I want to do. Dunno what I should do. Dunno what I can do. And, I dunno what I will do. |
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